Time to wrap this up

It’s 7 Feb and I’ve decided to wrap this up.

On Day 28 I hit a big fat shiny mirror in my life and business. It took me a day and half to work through all the stories I was telling myself. Actually in all honestly it took a good 30 minutes but a day and a half to sit my arse down and do it.

I’d had a meeting that morning, and it showed me a lot of the things I didn’t want, but that led me to telling myself that therefore I couldn’t do the work I wanted to do in the world.

Now, in my body there was this rub, a resistance that brought on a lot of tears, a lot of stories and it was up to me to unpack it all.

Just over a week later, I realised what I needed to do, and that was to thank the person that had allowed the mirrors to be shown to me.

I’m going to be honest with you, that was one of the challenges I faced, because an older version of me would have wanted to blame that person for what they’d said, but it had nothing to do with them.

It had everything to do with what I was telling myself.

When I saw that, and what I was telling myself, then I knew what my next step was, and that was to thank them.

And I did and I’m grateful that I was brave enough to have that conversation with them. All my people pleasing came up — all of it, but I stayed in my truth — being honest, loving and kind, and owning it all.

Another big thing that’s come up this year is, slowing down. Doing things really intentionally and not just ‘getting things done’ to quickly move onto the next thing and not having fully finished the last thing.

Telling myself I had an MVP (Minimal Viable Product) but there was still some tidy up to be done.

So slowing down, removing things from my life that whilst still might be valuable aren’t the true work I need to be doing. This year I’m writing a book, and while my time here has been valuable at no stage have I really started diving into my novel writing.

The process of writing for 27 days straight was awesome, and I really enjoyed it, but now it’s time to say goodbye and I might be back in the future!

What I am going to continue doing is ‘what I’m proud of’ because I missed that, so if someone is reading this, dive into that practice, it’s a beautiful soul-filling one.

Today I’m proud of:

• Playing Roblox with Teddy for way more hours than I ever wanted to
• Having a swim as soon as we got out of bed
• Letting things go in my life xo

PS. Despite all the drama, I still haven’t eaten chocolate — so I’m still keeping myself accountable xo