2021: Teddy — Day 22

He’s going through changes.

Daddy is his go to, except when Daddy does or says something he doesn’t like — then it’s back to me.

He doesn’t like seeing Chris and I kiss. When we were in the pool he’d splash up with water — cheeky monkey but we did need to chat to him about it and it couldn’t be me.

They say the first 7 years of a boys life is their mum, and the next 7 years is their Dad. Then the following 7 years is their peers. For girls the first and second 7 years flip, the 3rd is the same.

Teddy’s right on time in terms of development.

And it’s meant I’ve had to think differently.

I can’t just do things any more, I do need to consciously ask what he wants. I’ve done this all along but somethings have to be more conscious now.

I’m also prepared for the ‘no Mummy’, but I want to make sure he knows that I’m still there — that I’m not disappearing.

I’ll always have his back.

I’ll always love him unconditionally.

And like today, when he wanted to hang with me at the shopping mall, playing silly games, I’ll be there for those too.

Today I’m proud of:

• asking a silly question
• sharing what I know with others — which really shows me how much I know
• Looking at my thoughts — even though I didn’t want to — and choosing again xo