2021: Releasing Blocks — Day 26

I had a coaching call today, I was coached.

I decided to dive into a topic that I was putting off — like fully putting off.

I’ve changed a lot over the last 6.5 years. I wonder if it was easier for people (to a point) to be friends with me before I changed? And honestly I’m not sure that’s even a question.

Perhaps you can see that my brains a bit muddled in this space and I’m conscious of what I share — perhaps leaving out more than I write.

As I think about where I can take this, I have to take full responsibility for my role in all of this.

Changes bring in loads of opportunity, loads of things you can say yes to and loads of things you start to say no to — like giving up alcohol and chocolate.

It also asks you to question who you hang around with, because as we know we’re the sum of the 5 people we spend the most time with and when I looked at my 5 people, I think, at the time, I only found 3 maybe? 3 close friends and no one that I really confided in.

Yes I talked and I shared, but did I nourish? Did I know how to nourish and go deeper with friends? Perhaps not.

I know my life had been created by my thoughts and my actions, I also know that in order to change my life as it was, I needed to find different people who made me believe that I could have what I wanted.

This led me to believe (my thought) that I’d ‘lost’ my old friends.

It’s interesting to look at thoughts, explore them and then ask ‘is that true?’ and ‘do I want to think that way?’ and often the answer is ‘no and no’.

I busted through a huge block.

I reframed my thoughts.

I practice my new thoughts lots and I moved back into a space that had been calling me — again. Which means, I’m going to play netball — again.

I notice that grief was involved here, and grief is held in the lungs. My lungs are somewhat clearer today and that’s a story for another day.

Today I’m proud of:

• Talking about my block
• Working through my block
• Choosing again and taking action from that space