2021: Chocolate urges — Day 24

This blog is about my 365 day journey without chocolate, so I feel it would be remiss of me if I didn’t mention it.

As I’m typing this my mouth is craving chocolate — saliva is building, I can taste the creamy, crunch. I can smell it and see those nuts that are going to pass my lips wrapped in dreamy chocolate.

Ok I need to stop or I’m going to go and eat some — if only we had some in the house ha ha

It’s been 24 days since I ate chocolate.

Alternatives have crept in, like:

• hot chocolate (I had 2 and the weight gain in that week alone was enough for me to not do that again)
• ice cream (1 x mint choc chip and 1 x chocolate confession — this time the tummy cramps were enough for me to think twice next time)

So 24 days, and I’m doing surprisingly well.

I don’t think about chocolate like I used to. You know, it’s night time, I’m about to sit on the couch and cuddle with my husband — let’s get the chocolate out.

As you would know, because you’re a chocolate lover like me, the chocolate just falls into your lap — you don’t have to go and get it, there’s a chocolate magic that happens right xo

So 24 days, and occasionally I’ll have these like portal moments, where, as if there is another world where I’m eating chocolate and I can see if for but a moment or where my first thought is ‘go and eat chocolate’ and I see it — again but for a moment and I choose again.

I usually don’t do anything but notice my thoughts and with the chocolate one, it’s so quick, a flash, and then my brain must say ‘we don’t eat that’.

It’s really interesting.

Anyway, 24 days and yes I crave it, I thought about it at the shops yesterday but anyway, I just move on.

I’m doing fine, I’m ok and life isn’t worse without it — it’s actually better because I’m not thinking about when my next hit is.

I’m eating less because I’m not on sugar spikes, and food isn’t my main joy — I experience joy through life itself, through conversations and I’m excited about that.

So what am I most proud of today?

• Seeing joy in other areas of my life
• Loving myself more today
• Doing yoga for the first time in months, my body loved and hated it, but I’m going to do it again tomorrow.